Hello there! So I'm feeling bored in my bunk therefore I decided to post something on my super stagnant blog. Been pretty busy at work recently. Many things to be done so little time so little manpower. Well, we just have to make do I guess. I'm in need of a break! Hopefully I can do that soon! Studies wise, I got offers from all the universities I applied to. But I picked UNSW as I have friends there and know people who have graduated from the same course. If my application to disrupt from full time national service, I would depart for studies next July and would expect to graduate somewhere July 2014? Hopefully I can start my career or at least start training. You know what I wanna do as a career.. Had the chance to talk to some people recently. Trying to talk sense into them. Giving personal experiences and such. Well, you know what? Some times I really think some people really excuse brain. Clearly a smart person, but don't want to put his heart and mind into completing his tasks. At times I feel tired of being the "bad guy" but the person just don't feel tired of skiving! My mind is pretty much in a whirpool now. Got a lot of matters I'm pondering about. I hope I get my answers soon!

So, let's see.. It's been ages since I last posted something on my blog.

Well, here I am as an armament technician. Going no doubt has it's up and downs. But we have been quite busy recently. Loads of stuff to settle. Not only do I have work to settle, I have to also settle my university stuff.

Somehow, I've been thinking about a lot of stuff. Some stuff simply is between me and God which I won't talk about here. Mainly what I'm thinking about now is advancement in my NS life and my career. Both somehow affects each other.

I guess many have heard about my intentions to sign on. However, I've heard that unless I'm at least a specalist, I cannot sign as an officer. There is a slim chance that I can go for the section commander course. But currently on paper, another guy is the section 2I/C. Some of my friends who think that I deserve it told me that I should fight to go for the course openly. But I'm in a dilemma. It won't be nice to fight openly. Furthermore, a lot of my platoonmates have treated my buddy as the 2I/C already. So I was thinking that it might be a blow to him should it turn out that he isn't going for the course. But it's my career we are talking about here.. So it really troubles me. I don't really like the thought of having to fight with my buddy for "promotion". I believe that it's for the authorities to decide. But some argue that you have to make yourself visible.. I really don't know what's my next step to take.

This is the only problem I'm facing now that I'm willing to talk about. Guess I'll keep the rest private for now.

Coincidentally, one of the SAF merit scholar recepients this year has the same name as me. He is Cephas Ong while my surname is Kong. If only.. Never the less, congrats sir!

So week one in the new unit has passed. I was posted to Ordinance Engineering Training Institute or OETI for short. Nicknamed Only Eat, Talk and Idle. Vocation is Armament Technician Trainee. Truth be told, I don't like it there at all. Life is too slack.

During the last PC interview in BMT, he told me that I still stand a chance to get into OCS. So I would assume that if I don't get into OCS, I should be posted to SCS. However, that did not happen. Instead I was posted to where I am now. Wondering why I am posted here. But there is nothing much I can do except to continue to do my best in everything and voicing out to my superiors my desire to be in OCS. Some people tell me that I'm somewhat condemned to be a enlisted personnel already.

I just don't understand why I am posted here. I am a highly motivated person never quit(except when its really not worth it and its stupid to push on). Well, I just don't know. Apparently I heard that many people supposed to go OCS also were posted to "man" vocations.

You can just imagine the devastation I feel after working so hard for something but it never comes. Been longing for a very long time to join the Air Force as a regular. I was rejected. Nevermind, I still can become an NSF Officer. That also didn't come.

I recently found out about ugly things that was spoken about me by my peers in BMT. I choose not to be affected by them. One day they might understand. Well, for one, I may seem to be wayang, but I don't. In fact, I hate wayang. In my opinion, if you have what it takes, you have it. If not, you are not. What makes it worse is that even my superiors in BMT misunderstand me. Nevermind, I will just let it pass and continue to do my best in everything.

There is surely a reason for me to be posted where I am. But I still want to work hard to be given the chance to be an officer. Like what I've said, some people have told me that I'm condemned to remain as an enlisted personnel. But I think I've raised the matter up and now its up to GOD's will. Painful no doubt. But like what Army teaches, suck thumb.

POP LOH!!!

POP came and went. BMT is now over and I am a private. Well, looking back at BMT, I must say it has been quite happening.

BMT was a really unique experience where you get to meet all sorts of people from all walks of life.

Too much has happened to be mentioned here. But I would just like to say that I am proud to be from 5th coy but I am not proud of the attitude and behavior of some of my fellow trainees. Get it right, I don't hate the person, I just hate what they do.

Although we did not win the best coy competition, we all know in our hearts that we are the best. The way we do not give up easily, the speed at which we march, the discipline, the relentless spirit the list goes on but it just goes to show that we are the best coy no matter what the results show. Although we got second best, we lose with pride. Well done guys!

Career wise, it seems hopeless that I would be starting my career anytime soon. Been rejected for some vocations that I am interested in on the basis of medical. I have come to accept it and just leave it all to GOD. However, it is still disappointing not to be able to do what you have dreamt of all your life. And its even more disappointing to see your friends who do not have as much passion as you get what you wanted. Though the disappointment is there, we still need to learn to pick up the pieces and move on, trusting that GOD has a better plan. For me, I have decided to play it by ear and see how things goes.

Anyway, its time for bed. Been sleeping for most of the time since I got home from my graduation parade. Longest stretch so far? I think 12hours or more. Sleeping till back aching but I'm still tired... How??